Hi, I’ve joined the forum in the midst of pure heartbreak and agony as I’m processing the loss of my 11 year old Boxer, Marley. I’ve had him since I was 19, been through so many life events with myself and my husband. He was so special to me. I never imagined him dying suddenly. He was going to be 12 in January 2022. He was going on walks slower than he used to but still going for a good 20-30 mins with ease. He was eating and happy, greeting everyone, barking from his favourite position on our front verandah. He was seeming his normal self! He had a health check done in July, with his vaccinations (which I now regret with his age) and the vet said he had discomfort in his back legs with osteoarthritis, suggesting I start him on Petosan injections. He had the first 4 of those injections with last one on August 6th. The only odd thing he did was 2 weeks before his death we went for a walk in the afternoon and wanted to keep sitting/lying down with head upright not collapsing or fainting. But I thought he must be having pain with the arthritis? I wish I thought more of this and went to the Vet emergency anyway with hindsight. Throughout his life he did faint when exciting / pulling hard on lead say if we saw another dog and got worked up. I’d brought this up with vets who never seemed that worried about it, just suggested he was cutting his circulation on his neck by pulling too hard. Never fainted off lead. On October 16 he was acting totally normal, had his dinner and went to bed. My husband was up at midnight and he was up walking around But he wasn’t dry heaving or making any noise, but there was diarrhoea there next morning. At 6am next morning when my husband woke up and came downstairs he was collapsed in front of his bed, dead. It was my worst nightmare and I believe I’m deeply traumatised as I can’t stop obsessing over where I’ve gone wrong and how I’ve failed him after researching for weeks I feel so angry with myself that I hadn’t had a routine blood test done since 2018, every year I’ve gone the vets haven’t offered and I’ve forgotten to ask and I’ve never had him checked for his heart Health except the vets listening physically. I just wonder if he did have some sort of heart issue I never identified which lead to his sudden death. Has anyone lost their box suddenly like this? I’m so disappointed with myself and now regret not doing an autopsy as I don’t know if I’ll ever have peace with this loss. Thank you for reading.
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