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I am posting this with a broken heart and tears. Our little boy Jax lost the fight. He took a turn for the worst last week. He was laying around alot and lost interest in food again. I noticed that his gums were pale so, I took him in to vet on Tuesday. We were told that his blood count had dropped from 36 from last Friday to 32. The veternarian told us that if it dropped down into the teens then she would need to do a blood transfusion. She sent us home and put him on prednisone for 2 times a day instead of just once daily. At that point he made no improvement. I kept in touch with the vet and on Friday they wanted to see him again for a recheck. When we were getting ready ro take him to the vet i noticed black stool in the backyard. I knew that wasn't good and i feared the worst. When we got him to the vet they ran another blood test on him and they did a stool sample. The blood test showed that his blood level dropped down to 18 since Tuesday. His regular veternarian was back in the office on that day. When she came in the room and told us the results she said that it was not good and that at this point she felt like we were dealing with intestinal lymphomia. We asked her to run another ultrasound to see if there were any changes. Unfortumately, our fears were confirmed. She told us that he has lymphomia and that he has fluid building up in his belly. The prognosis was that he probally would not survive the weekend. She gave us the options which were to take him to Auburn, or to bring home and keep him as comfortable as we could. If taking him to.Auburn would've saved him, we would've done it in a heartbeat , but she said that it wouldn't do any good. My husband and i decided that bringing him home for one last night to say goodbye was the right thing to do. We brought him home, put him on our bed, loved on him, told him what a good boy he was.and we got him a cheeseburger from Mcdonald's for dinner. During the night he got worst and basically he didn't have the strength to lift his head up anymore, or anything else.
. When we woke up on that dreaded morning my husbad carried him outside to use the restroom, brought him back in, and then we laid with him until we took him at 10:30. The veternarian who came in the room told Jax that we were doing it because we love him. He told us that he reviewed Jax's records and we had made the right decision. That was the last thing that I ever wanted to do. It was tough and a part of my heart was left at the vet with him. We are having him cremated that way we can have him back home. Jax wasn't done with us. He fought this battle with everything that he had. I believe that we will get him back someday. I know that we did everything that we could to save him, but it doesn't take the pain away from losing him. I am thankful that he is not in pain anymore and that he is running with Max now, but it still hurts.You don't realize how short their time on earth is until you don't have them anymore. Jax left pawprints on the part of.our hearts that he didn't take with him. Even though this journey has ended we know another one is coming. We love an miss you both ,Jax.and Max.
 

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I'm so sorry for your loss. Jay surely will be missed . It is the most difficult time for us fur parents when we have to say goodbye but it it the utmost sacrifice we can do for our beloved family pet member. I will keep you all in good thoughts. Hugs.
 

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Oh I'm so sorry to here this. How old was he?? And yeah, the next couple of weeks are gonna be pretty rough but it will get better with time and on that day you will be able to smile thru the tears and remember all the good times you've had. Take care....
 

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A part of me just died

Last week I had the biggest hurt I have ever had. I lost my heart and soul Travis. Travis was a rescue form an illegal drug lab. He was shuffled from owner to owner, When I met him it was an instant click. I had Travis for almost 9 years we did everything together. My Vet once told me I didn't own Travis that Travis owned me. I loved my owner. I 'm retired I served two tours in Vietnam wounded twice , Africa and Honduras in the Infantry and saw death several times. I lost family and friends , but nothing even comes close to the heart break I have with the loss of Travis. He gave me something that a person couldn't. I have been crying for days and miss him terribly ,I don't think I will ever heal from his loss.Travis had cancer and an enlarged heart with congestive heart failure. The fought a good fight in the end the vet could do no more and said it best for him to end his suffering. I held my boy until his last breath with tears running down my face .It feels like something inside me died along with him. I have had other dogs but never a dog like him. They say once you own a Boxer you won't want another dog. I probably will get another boxer in time but he or she will have to have that look those Brown eyes that say I love you. It's hard to write this because of the tears. Love your Boxer as if it were his last day because they love unconditionally.
 

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I am so sorry for your loss, the heart break of missing Jax, well we know it is an ache that simply hurts. A friend of mine forwarded this to me a long time ago, I do not know the author, but I kept it, read it many times, maybe it will bring you a little piece....


The Last Battle

If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this — the last battle — can't be won.
You will be sad I understand,
But don't let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.

We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn't want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they'll tend,
Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don't grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We've been so close — we two — these years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.


From my family to yours sending all our support!

Michele and Family
 

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We got Jax back today. Although, I would"ve much rathered picked him up healthy, and full of energy instead of in a box. There is no way of preparing yourself for picking up your dog's ashes and pawprints. I feel better knowing that he is back home. It eases the pain, but it doesn't go away. We have set up a memorial in our bedroom for Jax since that was his favorite place to be. We put his ashes beside a picture of him with his collar and we are lighting a candle beside it at night. The veternarian office has been wonderful in handling everyhing. Even though Jax has passed , I am thankful for the last few months that the vet gave him with us. Our lives have changed without him here. You don't realize all of the little things that they do until they're not with you anymore. I have caught myself several times expecting to see him in a spot and him not being there. Our vet and the crematory facility did a good job honoring our last wishes for Jax. I had a peace of mind when I read the certificate stating that Jax was cremated on July 1st, and when I noticed that the urn box, pawprints,.and even the bag that everything was in said Jax's name. We love Jax and he will be forever missed.
 

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The Last Battle

If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this — the last battle — can't be won.
You will be sad I understand,
But don't let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.

We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn't want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they'll tend,
Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don't grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We've been so close — we two — these years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.
Thanks for sharing this poem.
 

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Jax loved the car. The picture that I posted was the last picture that I took of him. It was 4 days before we lost him. He laid down in the front seat the entire we were riding around. He sat up when we turned into our neighborhood.
 

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I am so sorry for your loss

I lost my girl Sadie in November (2018) and Tucson in December 2018 and it hurt so bad, I did not want to go on. Sadie we had lost due to a misunderstanding and mistaken ID in New Mexico with the law and she ran off into the desert. Four years after writing to vets in that area and looking for her (we had moved to Texas) my husband goes online and she is at a pet rescue. We drive over night to pick her up and she is with us for five more years and she passes.

Tucson I had with me for 10 years. He was with me as a puppy when Sadie disappeared (he was in his cage when the "incident" occurred). He was with me through sorrow and through joy. We drove to my husband's brother's house for Christmas dinner, I had made dinner at home, because my son did not want to go. My son made his boxer Jake and my Tucson a special dish with left over chinese fried rice, their food, and he put in ham and ham glaze. My Tucson (probably) ate with gusto, then they went out to play and chase a ball. An hour later (we were home by then) and they were outside, when Tucson started to retch. He threw up until no more could come out. I rushed him to the vet but it was too late. His stomach had twisted on itself and it choked his organs. There was no saving him. I was devastated. I had to put him down and I held him as he left this world, saying "baby, take me with you. I don't want to live without you at my side." I cried until I could cry no more. That was Christmas night. I went into a depression so black, I could not function.
A month later, my husband told me I needed to take my son and drive to Galveston; he had bought me a male Boxer puppy. I did not want to go, I fought him. But in the end, I took Jake and my son and we drove from Richmond to Galveston. When I saw the puppy, I fell in love and named him Tahoe Joe, after a restaurant I met my husband at in Bakersfield.
He has become my constant companion. While I still miss Tucson and Sadie and grieve for them daily, Tahoe has eased my pain, because he demands so much attention and love.

What I recommend is in time, get yourself a rescue puppy, or even go to a reputable breeder (I love Boxers!) and get yourself another companion.
God bless you!
 

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Condolences to Jaxsmom it is never easy losing a loved fur kid, I know I've been through it several times. Fond memories and time will ease some of the hurt
Be well.
 

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So sorryfor your loss

I lost my Travis about a month ago and have cried everyday hiding it from everyone. I found out what heart break really is. A part of me died with him . I too held him and felt his last breath . I served as an Airborne Ranger with two tours in Vietnam ,and Africa. Saw lots of death lost mother father sister and three brothers but nothing bothered me as mush as losing Travis. I understand how you feel. Try to remember all the good times and the love you gave to him that no one else could. Share that love with another Boxer and they will love you right back.
 

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I am sorry for the loss of all of your boxers. I am having a hard time with Jax not being here. I try to be strong in front of the kids though. There is not a day that goes by that we don't talk about Jax, or laugh about something that he did. It gets easier with time, but the hole is always there. I would love to get another boxer in time, but my family is on a another path than I am.
My husband and kids are afraid of getting another boxer. So, they are wanting to get a Siberian Husky some time down the road. Boxers will always have my heart and will be my favorite breed. Our beagle/daschund is doing good, but our daschund is missing him. The 'Dagle" Belle doesn't have anything to do with the daschund Oscar so in time we will get him another friend. Just not anytime soon.
 
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